Thanks so much. You have no idea how much it's helped

I was going to put this in comments but it got so long, it needed to be here I think...

First, thank you all for your wise and understanding comments. I try to remember that this is the risk we all take in loving so completely. Probably the hardest thing we do in life is to love this much and have to let go, too.

Trish, thanks for the hugs, and I'll pass J's right along to him. And yes, it surely is the hardest thing.

fiberjoy, I'm going to remember this little fellow like no other and I've had some great relationships with animals who let me into their lives and their amazing world.

About those long 602 days ahead - The world will have to endure them. There's no other way out is there? I can't see it really getting better whomsoever is in or out of office, as this thing has been set in motion, and now has a life of it's own, sadly.

Rho, yes, thank goodness for the internet. I still have to call my vet and report this latest, so that she can give me her expert opinion as the long holiday is now over. I think that J knew we were there for him but I could see that he was fighting a battle all his own. If he had been by himself, well, it's unthinkable for me...


Rissa, I would change vets too! In fact J didn't see his own vet until he had started having six seizures a day. She had broken her foot and was unavailable. He did see two vets who were filling in for her. A couple of days later, our vet hobbled in, immediately did the blood work, STAT, and started him on meds that afternoon. She's fabulous! I hope your boys are doing well on their meds now. Truly scary and we have humans who can tell us just how bad it is. How an animal doesn't just die of the stress I'll never know.

AR, thanks, and we feel very lucky to have found this little guy, too.

I did get an eye opener when I talked to a mother who has a child with epilepsy. She described her son's grand mal seizures. I calmed way down about J after that.. this was early on... and so when he had this terrible one Saturday, I remembered her words. Of course much later, like 3am, so I got up and looked at the info on the web. Sure enough, there it was.

sarah-hope, Thanks for telling us about your experience with your Joanna. I'm so glad that you were able to hold her and comfort her in her passing. It was a blessing for her and for you.

I'm still kind of in shock. My body now is recovering it's balance. I did knit one little row on Gretchen Shawl.

I wish you all Peaceful Hearts. We can't expect much from the World at large very soon but Grace from Within can suffice when the world is lacking.