|Ice Crystal clouds before the Last Storm|
Many times in the past, I've typed out and meant to share something, but have felt too exposed by my writings. My heart is with all those who suffered such a terrible blow in both the mall shooting and the school shooting.
I worked at a school that was attacked. I remember January 1979 and how much it hurt to lose two valued human beings I worked with. I remember how controlling I got from that time forward, trying to control everything my kids did and everywhere they went.
Before that time I was the happiest person alive, and had very good reasons for it. After the shooting I felt exposed and vulnerable, and cried myself to sleep for weeks. Now, looking back, I feel like my life's purpose was partially fulfilled on the day I expected to die. You can try to, but you can never forget the sounds, the sorrow, the screaming, nor can you change memories and get back to your happy life. It changes you forever. Our street was filled with news vans and reporters. All the kids stayed in lock down inside the school for hours and hours.
So, remember to be extra kind to the survivors, especially for the children, because they may well have a maelstrom going on in their heads and hearts for the rest of their lives, and are trying to cope as well as they can. They cope until something like this happens yet AGAIN! You just have to look at the haunted faces of people who have survived civilian attacks anywhere in the world to know that it's a horrible thing to go through.
I wish you safety in your daily lives and Peace throughout.