"When I tell you something is dangerous, I mean it. And, I never forget the Victims"
T.J. Hooker
"Everyone can master a Grief but he who has it”
William Shakespeare
”I had given him a life not worth living, but I had also given him an iron will to live. This was a common combination on the planet Earth”
Kurt Vonnegut about his character, Kilgore Trout.

Wednesday, October 4, 2017

Thursday 13: "List of the day" worries...mundane, profane, and sometimes whiny.

1.  I worry that this is going to be late because things are moving too quickly for me.  Everything seems to be chaotic, and strange these days.  I don't long for the presidency of Bush at all, but I wouldn't mind having a few competent and sane people in the White House.  Thank God for Obama, despite the things he couldn't get changed because of entrenchments in a couple of other "wings".  He was a decent, intelligent man who did a good job of helping us all to heal.  Boy, did the crazies ever come out of the woodwork......

2.  We are going to see me sister today.  This always puts me in a tizzy.  Loving someone and not being able to do anything for them is a clash between Anxiety and Energy, the latter of which has no sane or effective outlet outside of eating too much.  I'm not willing to do that just yet, but it's getting THIS close.

3.  I'm worried about the insane gun culture that seems to rule the heart and mind of the average American.  I think about Europe and Canada.  Even Tasmania.   How do they manage to live without a plethora of firearms?  Is it because they have been through two full out land wars engulfing them after centuries of other bloody conflicts?

4.  I worry that the strange electric signals from my spine down my leg are telling me even more things I don't want to hear.

5.  I worry about my twins, who are having to move after 17 years calling one place their home.  I worry about their hearts and souls.  The house is being sold.

6.  I worry about America.  And, weirdly, the flip side is that Native Americans predicted this;Jesus, actually did, too.  He wasn't as specific as the First Nation Peoples, but pretty spot on just the same.

7.  I worry that my hairbrush is telling me that it's a lost cause trying to hang onto my hair.  And, now I know why almost every little old lady I know has a shortish, perky little hairstyle.

8.  I've had to quit eating chocolate, and this is because of a resurgence of what I hope isn't an ulcer.  I'm going to miss Chocolate if it's a cause.  But no storm cloud is without a silver lining, yes, that old saw... I'm also losing weight. Worry column or Glad?  *thinking about it*  And, Please, could you make that a chocolate apple?
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9. The roof is done, but I refuse to not worry about it until it has survived the first real rainstorm without a leak.  Oh, did I say that it's beautiful!  It's straight as a die, and completely perfect.  Now we can see what the rain will do with it.  Living with that faulty roof (almost just as expensive and lasting only 6.5 years) has made me a "I'll believe it when I see" person.
I also knew that the old roof was bad in at least one area that I could see.  I just couldn't get up there to inspect it.  The other leaking parts left their own indelible marks on my retinas, the ceilings, and the nervous system.

10.  I wish I'd taken up the offer of a free (of course nothing is every completely free unless Warren Buffet is giving it to you) camera drone.  I worried that I'd never find a use for it in my lifestyle.  Now, I wish I had taken it as it would be handy to keep an eye on the new roof.

11.  Mr.Z thinks I'm crazy, but I am worried about the one pound weight loss in Wolfie, and how narrow his face looks.  It's taken about six months for him to lose this pound. 

12.  I'm worried about Gal.  If her Cubbies don't win the pennant, she may be inconsolable.  But, no, this is a false worry.  She'd love and cheer them on anyway.
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13.  I worry about the new Juvenile Mockingbird who took over his parent's territory.  He hasn't got that "fire engine siren" infected and complex song of an adult, yet, and so he still sounds sweet.  He's taken to fighting with his image in all the big windows.  I hope he doesn't bean himself some day.  I hope he can attract a mate.  I love him so much already.

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  1. I'm looking into the shortish, perky hairstyle, too. I'm losing the battle with the hair products as fast as the hair itself.

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    1. I’ll join you in the salon, Alice. I used to have the curly, wavy hair of an Italian Diva, and now it’s like Einstein’s mop but half the volume. I despair. ๐Ÿ˜ฉ lol

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  2. My mother's all-time favorite song: "Don't Worry, Be Happy". She's been gone over a decade now, but I can still hear her singing it.

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    1. Reggae! That’s a great song. It’s so lovely that you can still hear your mom singing it. I can still hear my mother’s voice, and her laugh, though she’s been dead now for 31 years. It will be good to see her again if it works out that way. ๐Ÿ˜Š๐Ÿ™๐Ÿผ๐Ÿ˜‡๐Ÿ˜ˆ
      Happy T13 Ron!

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  3. I hear ya. I'm trying to come up with something perky or some comb over for my hair. I usually wear a hat. Also just discovered I have an ulcer. I cut wayyyy back on caffeine/my beloved tea and good beer.

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    1. Ouch... ulcers are no fun! I had one several years ago, and it’s. been trying, mightily, to come back. I quit drinking coffee during the last bout, and hardly eat any chocolate now either. Tension of the times. I think my sister, without a medical breakthrough, only has a handful of years left. She’s ten years younger, and I might outlive her,too. Dread that.
      Hair: I used to love it now hate it! At least it can no longer get down to the middle of my back, but is lucky to make it an inch or two below my shoulders. Washing it is a chore.

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  4. Oh, I was going to say that I think about entropy a lot. The universe really is expanding and speeding up and this makes room for lots of chaos. Things really were simpler in the past.

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    1. I think about things like you do, and now have come to the conclusion that the “chickens” are coming home to roost. In our names, so to speak, the elites have been doling out warfare, raining it down on innocents for so many years, that they have now got the boomerang coming back at us. This “nationalist” thing that Putin pushes is self serving, and we’ve only just begun to make out the ramifications of it. That whole GOP cadre that missed this double dealer’s slight of hand are getting caught flat footed. Who suffers? The common folk. Chaos indeed! Now we will live with the result even though we really had very little in our hands we could stop it with.
      Maelstrom

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  5. You've got lots to worry about, but I'm guessing your sense of humor will get you through it. :) Thanks for sharing.
    http://www.miaceleste.com/?p=1001

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    1. A sense of humor always serves well if it doesn’t end up shrouded in deep anxiety. But, I now deem this thing roaring closer by the minute to be unstoppable. So, why worry? I just don’t want to bury another kid- no one’s kid. The elites and their pet politicians, those who engineer our lives, are the “class” I hope get judged first. If by Jesus, Shiva, or a group of aliens, I care not.

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  6. How sad you have to give up chocolate! :( And I'm with you about wanting the Cubs to do well for The Gal!

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    1. Hopefully they will be able to tromp on through to the other side, and win one for the Gal. The Gipper was football, right. lol
      I will add Chocolate back in just as soon as I get a handle on this thing. I could have something to do with my now drastically reduced height. Stay tuned... heehee

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  7. I had ulcers, too. Actually I had 10 great big bleeding ones in my stomach and then more than 50 in the next area of your intestines (whatever that is called) so I had more than 60. I was quite sick. So I hope you do not have an ulcer. I suspect mine may be returning, as well, but this is because I tried to go off my medication and onto something that has less side effects. I am back on the other stuff and hoping I didn't cause too much trouble, though my doctor wants me to try to get off of it again in a few weeks. We'll see. Chocolate is hard on it but I have a terrible time giving it up.

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  8. Oh wow. You really have almost a systemic problem. I'd just cut way back on the chocolate asap, sort of ramp it down. My daughter was allergic to chocolate for several years. I know that your symptoms don't fit allergy, so at least that part is good. Do you take Pepcid? That's what I was prescribed when I got the first one. It was caused be an over production of stomach acid.
    I'm not sure what that part of the gut is called either, but it certainly doesn't sound good!
    I gave up chocolate from the pain. Plus, I don't want esophageal cancer because that killed my beloved grandfather at 53. So, I gave up chocolate to get rid of the constant reflux and pain. I am back to eating one little square a day and that seems to be enough of a comfort for me. But the pain was such a motivator that I'll give it up easily once again if that pain comes back.
    Good luck dear friend! I'll keep you in my thoughts, as always. ~♥~

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I’m going through some stuff but I will peek in now and then and will be back when it’s over..